me....such a looser...

finally got his msn....but so what?


waited for him for the whole nite

finally he is onlin....but so what?



i'm such a looser...

chickens out at this pt....

don't even have the gut to talk to him...


god...

what am i doing?

plz....

for chris's sake...

give me more courage to face him...

give me more luck

give me more hope...



i don't know how to face him now..

don't think he REALLY want to give me his msn...

i think he gave it to me coz i actually ask hime for it...

not that he wants to talk to me...

not that he wants to be my friend...




this is the first time that i wish i'm more popular..

this is the first time that i wish i'm like casidy......

no...

i'm not her..

not as good looking as casidy...

not as good as casidy..

ai...

what should i do....



can someone plz tell me what i should do with him...

can someone plz tell me what i should do to make him look into my eyes.....




i can give up on good results...

i only want a pass...

but..

i want to have a big smile on my face....with him standing beside me....



oh well....

i think.....

by the time he actually standing beside me....

all the pig will be flying in the sky...

which is going to be a dream...

just like edam (?!) said....