Good Bye 3/14/2020
Today is my son's 21 year birthday. He mentioned he wanted to move out with his friends. Their school cancelled their event for Saturday he was really upsetting. My Godparents and I throw him a birthday party. I made birthday cake myself the first time. My husband and I always gave him ice cream cake. I want to bring a new tradition. He soon is to be independent on his own as I try to find him summer internship.
Due to Coronavirse that safe distance is 6 feet so there is no sales made so far. My modeling viedo show postponed till next week and just apply art model gig and wait for approval. Travel plan had been postponed and no one can come into USA. Now it is your best excuse that you can't come home to me.
Just want to inform you, it is your decision to be the Sweden art gallery owner that I missed or my husband that asked me not to go to a date with that art gallery owner. Many suitors have shown up one after another and I informed them about your existing. I will decide which man among you to settle down. I am not sure if I will choose you or not. I already told you I will never fall in love with you if you never show up in front of me. Seven months now I don't see you want to make us work. If any man among you make move before you, I will have to let you go. You will be again that Sweden art gallery owner that I will always wonder what if. It is your choice and I just want to let you know first.
The memories of that Sweden art gallery owner will always be there and let me wonder in my remaining life forever as I don't remember what he is all about. You have given lots of great memories too. Now I have to admit that will only just memories even though I hope you will be the one I chosen and by Coronavirus outbreak we've given impossible to ever meet in real life. From you said I am not ready till you did not come back for Valentine's, I already know the answer that you finally will be that art gallery owner that I will miss again in my life.
You have said God brings you to me and now he took you away. Power above has making the decision for us. I am really sad as nothing ever work after seven months we pull and push each other. I miss you like crazy but I will just have to accept the sign that I have been receiving.
Let another lucky girl to fulfill your dream for you. I thought as long as I fight we could be together. Guess I was so wrong. You will never to be mine to begin with and time for me to wake up. Seven months I hold down and somehow you are like a kite flying into sky.
Thanks for being with me all this time. I will always remember those nights we text each other and how you are like my husband's spirit guided me all this time. I wish I could be that lucky girl hold in your arms and shared life with you. That is just all to be my dream as I wake up everything back to reality.
I did not abandon you as the world today we just have to accept it. I may not ever love any man like I love my husband. I just want someone to be by my side. Somehow that someone is no longer to be you.
Hearing your hello the first time make me finally know you are real. I am glad to finally hear your voice the first time and the last time too.
Please take care of yourself during this health crisis and you will always be in my heart deeply. I will always remember seven months of us. Just everything will be just memories!
再見了3/14/2020 卡斯珀 今天是我兒子21歲生日。他提到他想和他的朋友們搬出去。他們的學校取消了他星期六感到非常沮喪的活動。我的乾 父母和我給他舉行了生日聚會。我第一次做生日蛋糕。我和我丈夫總是給他冰淇淋蛋糕。我想帶來一個新的傳統。當我設法找到他夏季實習時，他很快將獨立自主。 由於Coronavirse的安全距離為6英尺，因此到目前為止沒有銷售。我的建模視頻秀推遲到了下週，然後才申請藝術模型演出並等待批准。旅行計劃已被推遲，沒有人可以進入美國。現在，您最好不要找我回家。 只是想通知您，您決定是我想念的瑞典美術館老闆，還是我的丈夫要求我不要與該美術館老闆約會。許多求婚者一個接一個地出現，我通知了您您的存在。我將決定你們當中哪個人安定下來。我不確定是否會選擇您。我已經告訴過你，如果你從不出現在我面前，我將永遠不會愛上你。七個月了，我看不到你想讓我們工作。如果你們中間任何人在你之前採取行動，我將不得不讓你離開。您將再次成為瑞典美術館的擁有者，我將永遠不知道該怎麼辦。這是您的選擇，我只想先告訴您。
那個瑞典美術館老闆的記憶將永遠存在，讓我一直想知道我的餘生，因為我不記得他的全部。您也給了很多美好的回憶。現在，我不得不承認，即使我希望您會成為我選擇的人，也只會留下回憶，而由于冠狀病毒的爆發，我們已經無法在現實生活中相遇了。從你說我還沒準備好直到你不回來參加情人節，我已經知道答案，你最終將是我一生中會再次想念的美術館老闆。 您已經說過上帝將您帶到我這裡，現在他把您帶走了。上方的力量為我們做出了決定。我真的很傷心，因為我們彼此拉動了七個月之後，什麼也沒做。我想念你像瘋了似的，但我只需要接受我收到的跡象即可。 讓另一個幸運的女孩為您實現夢想。我以為只要奮鬥 我們就能在一起。猜猜我錯了。您將永遠不會成為我的開始，也不會讓我醒來。我堅持了七個月，不知何故，你就像風箏一樣飛向天空。 感謝您一直與我在一起。我將永遠記得那些夜晚，我們彼此發短信，而你一直像我丈夫的精神引導著我。我希望我能成為一個幸運的女孩，抱著你，與你分享生活。當我喚醒一切回到現實時，這只是我的夢想。 我沒有放棄你，因為今天我們只是必須接受它。我可能從未愛過任何一個男人，就像我愛我的丈夫一樣。我只希望有人陪在我身邊。不知何故某人不再是你。 第一次聽到您的問候，讓我終於知道您是真實的。我很高興終於也第一次和最後一次聽到您的聲音。 在這場健康危機中，請好好照顧自己，您將永遠在我心中。我將永遠記得我們七個月。只是一切都會成為回憶！ 天使