2003-08-04 08:27:56Fishy
Personal Space
You did seem a little different these two days. I’m not sure if it has anything to do with your meditation or whatever changes. Maybe I just can’t remember what exactly you were like 45 days ago. :P It was a good change, I think.
I had a great time these two days after I came back. I would like you to know that.
You’re the one who often emphasize personal space. I wonder if you really know that I agree with you and do need some personal space myself as well, maybe not as much though. I’m glad that you’ve been direct to me. Sometimes I’m just sensitive and a certain word might hurt me, especially when the period has some impact on me. It is hard to tell other people that “I need some space and please leave me alone.” Maybe that’s why I didn’t say it much, or sometimes I just couldn’t do anything to struggle for some time spent alone. I want you to know I don’t wish to stay with you like everyday. It’s gonna kill you, and me too. When something is like “unspoken rule” and we share the same opinion on it, it might hurt me if you kept saying “go away” or “you’re killing me”, even not seriously. I’ll go away myself. It seems different to me when I go away myself or you tell me to go. I’m sorry if you think I’m too sensitive. I hope to let you know what I’m thinking, even when I’m cranky and stuff.
I understand that you need some time to be alone. I won’t take it personally. I can feel that you like me a lot, and I’m glad at it. I doubt if I’m really a dependent girl who has many needs upon other people. I know what I should do without you, this “special friend” here. Please let me know when you think I’m asking for too much. I won’t get upset. Just want you to know I’ve thought about it and know what to do even if you never existed.
You were a little strange today. Maybe it was just the way I felt. Like you said, maybe you’ll have something come up to you but it won’t happen if I’m here with you. Hope you’re feeling better now.
Looks like I’m writing all about the bad feelings on my diary here. Well, if there’s some nice feeling I’ll let it out and you’ll know it right away. I’m not as direct as you are, however, I want to be communicative and let you know about my feeling bad sometimes. I tend to like writing those “complaints” here so that you’ll know. Also, I want to tell you that I enjoyed the time spent with you. Sometimes I would think it was gonna be so nice if I could just have a boyfriend like you till the end of my life, live an ok life, no need to worry about foods, place to live or clothes, cook awful sushi sometimes, lie on the couch and talk about whatever after dinner.
I’m lucky to have you around. I appreciate that.
I had a great time these two days after I came back. I would like you to know that.
You’re the one who often emphasize personal space. I wonder if you really know that I agree with you and do need some personal space myself as well, maybe not as much though. I’m glad that you’ve been direct to me. Sometimes I’m just sensitive and a certain word might hurt me, especially when the period has some impact on me. It is hard to tell other people that “I need some space and please leave me alone.” Maybe that’s why I didn’t say it much, or sometimes I just couldn’t do anything to struggle for some time spent alone. I want you to know I don’t wish to stay with you like everyday. It’s gonna kill you, and me too. When something is like “unspoken rule” and we share the same opinion on it, it might hurt me if you kept saying “go away” or “you’re killing me”, even not seriously. I’ll go away myself. It seems different to me when I go away myself or you tell me to go. I’m sorry if you think I’m too sensitive. I hope to let you know what I’m thinking, even when I’m cranky and stuff.
I understand that you need some time to be alone. I won’t take it personally. I can feel that you like me a lot, and I’m glad at it. I doubt if I’m really a dependent girl who has many needs upon other people. I know what I should do without you, this “special friend” here. Please let me know when you think I’m asking for too much. I won’t get upset. Just want you to know I’ve thought about it and know what to do even if you never existed.
You were a little strange today. Maybe it was just the way I felt. Like you said, maybe you’ll have something come up to you but it won’t happen if I’m here with you. Hope you’re feeling better now.
Looks like I’m writing all about the bad feelings on my diary here. Well, if there’s some nice feeling I’ll let it out and you’ll know it right away. I’m not as direct as you are, however, I want to be communicative and let you know about my feeling bad sometimes. I tend to like writing those “complaints” here so that you’ll know. Also, I want to tell you that I enjoyed the time spent with you. Sometimes I would think it was gonna be so nice if I could just have a boyfriend like you till the end of my life, live an ok life, no need to worry about foods, place to live or clothes, cook awful sushi sometimes, lie on the couch and talk about whatever after dinner.
I’m lucky to have you around. I appreciate that.